I am not alone!

I am not alone!

Today’s a snow day. I am enjoying my home, life and time with Jesus. January always brings one, two or a few depending on the year. I love em, always have and always will. I love being home. This morning I got a phone call from a loved one. They opened the call with how are you? I am so sorry you are alone, have to take care of your house, shoveling, so lonely… I had just finished my third cup of java, my devotion was basking in the light of my conversation with our savior, reveling in a day with only shoveling on my to do list. 

I heard myself reply, “I am never alone. I have Jesus.” The demeanor of the caller and conversation went from depressed to joy in that simple statement. I meant it and they felt it. We talked for a while and when we hung up they stated, “I am so glad I called. You are full of the Holy Ghost and I feel so uplifted.” Thanks God, just thanks. 

Listen, there is nothing perfect about me. I am single, divorced and I have struggled with this at times. Above are three photos of a book I carry and have carried with me since my divorce. It is full of scriptures that God has led me to in low moments. It is raggedy, worn yet a source of strength as I have written these down, embedded them in my core as I have gotten to know Him through daily conversations and reading of His word. When I got off the phone I went and got it out, reread His word. Thanking Him for the phone call, His words that flowed through me to the caller. 

What I have learned from Sunday sermons, conversations with our savior, His word  is that He is my husband: 

Isaiah 54:5-8 

For your maker is your husband. The Lord of Hosts is His name; and the Holy one of Israel is your redeemer. 

 I am His and He is mine. Not just mine but yours, lean into this, know Your husband. We are the bride of Christ. On work days I wake up between 4:30/5:00 am to have my morning conversation with Jesus. Today while shoveling I leaned into Him when it got heavy, “Thank You Jesus for strength to shovel, for nudging me to get out at the halfway point and get this started.” I am never, ever alone. Life isn’t challenge free yet with Him within me, filling me, walking with me, navigating the challenges is precious. When challenge is conquered I feel the mighty within me well up, filling me with a beautiful assurance that I am never, ever alone. Today the challenge was snow, each day there are different challenges, leaning in, knowing He is guiding my work, conversations, day makes each challenge, day an adventure. 

Do not feel sorry for me, think I am depressed, anxious or down because I am divorced, single or alone. I am not. I am in the sweetest spot. Christ is my husband. He is mine and I am His. Joy, love, peace is mine. I am truly blessed beyond measure. I do not know that I have articulated it so bluntly as I heard myself state today. I think His spirit within me was a bit offended and set the course straight. Know that while this is my story, my writing, this is His desire for you as well. We are His bride. He is our groom. We are here living our lives in a divine relationship. Choose Him, each day, each moment, lean in, walk with Him. What an honor, joy, bliss. Lean in, whisper a prayer as you walk through your days. You are never alone! 

Love to all!

   ML